Saturday, November 12, 2011

Not easy, but worth it!

Well, another week has gone by and I'm one week closer to Argentina.  We actually had half a district leave this morning and we have another district leaving this coming monday. Next monday there is another district leaving and then, hopefully, we are leaving. I can't believe how close it is. I don't really know what to say about this week.
It's been a pretty quiet week, which I know is probably hard to believe. This last saturday we held a sacrament meeting (minus the sacrament) for one of our "investigators". Her name is Paqui. she is 53; has 2 sons and one daughter; is catholic; and her husband is athiest. It's definitely an intersting set up especially when the sister in front of you is probably only 26. She really liked it and the three sisters in our district did a special musical number. The Spirit was so strong there. Not this saturday, but next saturday we are going to hold a baptismal service for her. Pretty much all of the companionships asked her to be baptized Nov 18th. I'm so excited for it. Our other "teacher investigator" is Jairo. He is a little more difficult, but I feel like we are finally learning more about him and how he feels. We have not yet asked him to be baptized yet, but I really hope we are bringing the Spirit with us, so that he is becoming more familiar with the promptings. This last lesson was really hard especially since he stopped us at the end before we were done and started speaking to us as a teacher. It is so hard when you have done everything you could and tried to apply everything you have been taught and basically be told it's not enough. He did not say that or mean it, he was helping us even more, but that was how I felt. Of course, you can guess that I broke down crying, but my companions are amazing. We all felt the same way but we were able to support each other. There is still so much to learn before we go out into the field and I know that I am not ready and I don't know if I will be. Your letters have come at the perfect times and I know that you are all being influenced by the Spirit because you said exactly what I needed to hear. I'm trying really hard not to get down on myself and am trying to give Satan a hard time. I know he doesn't want me here. He really doesn't want me here because he has been trying to stop me since I even started thinking about filling out my papers for my mission. I also know that fear and faith cannot exist in the heart at the same time, and courage is not the absence of fear, but the over coming of it.
Well, just to let you know, we have seven investigators total and are probably going to get more. One of the greatest comforting things that my teacher said to us when I was crying was that the investigators in the MTC would never be easy. He knows what we can handle and is always challenging us to do better. He is hard on us because we can do it. That is an amazing thing for me. We have already had some difficult questions about the trinity, Heavenly Father asking Nephi to kill Laban, Christ organizing His church, and so many more. I think the hardest part is asking inspired questions. We hardly know anything about our investigators and then we don't seem to ask the right questions.
I'm sorry that this seems like a depressing email. I really do have a lot of hope and I am very happy right now. The MTC is not always easy, but it is definitely worth it and is a wonderful place to learn. My teachers are inspired and amazing. I really wish that you could meet them. They are hilarious. Hermano Jimenez likes to come in and when one of us Hermana's says something ridiculus he says "Oh, Hermana" with a big sigh. He's always smiling though. I know I probably spelled ridiculus wrong, but it is very hard to spell when half of my mind is in Spanish and the other in English. Spanish a little harder now. My brain feels a little over loaded, but what is most difficult is that everyone speaks English around here so I can't help but speak in English. Oh well, it all works out if I do my part.  Well, my time is short. I'm sorry that I did not get to hear from you, but I know that you are busy especially with the reunion and Thanks giving. I love you all very much and I hope that life is going good.
Please go to the temple together every week. I cannot even begin to tell you how much it means to me right now. It's a place where you can feel together and feel God's love for you. I know that my days would not be the same if I missed one week of going to the temple. Benjamin, please to baptisms. Mom and Dad please go do a session together. I know that it will bring you great joy and comfort and peace. I know you know this already, but I wanted to add my testimony. Yo se que Jesucristo nos ama. El quiere que nosotros somos juntos por eternidad. Escuchan su espiritu y el os guia en la manera que necesitan ir. Os amo.
Hermana Jessica Lynn Alvey

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